4 years ago...

4 years ago - Someone broke my heart and my life was in shambles.
4 years ago - I was not in Your house and I knew You but felt You were distant.
4 years ago - I was estranged from my family and my life lost its colour when my heart was broken.

4 years ago - I wanted to further my studies for a degree but didn't know how.
4 years ago - I didn't think I could believe in love again.
4 years ago - I didn't think I could even trust men (even as friends) again.
4 years ago - I didn't think I would excel in my job.
4 years ago - Most of my friends then were his friends, my own set of friends had their own lives or were overseas.

4 years ago - Bitterness, Cynicism, Distrust, engulfed me.
4 years ago - I was self-driven but empty.

Since coming back to His house, He has changed all that.

During this Sunday's praise and worship, the Lord reminded me where I was 4 years ago and where I am now and how He brought about that transformation in my life. My heart was filled with gratefulness and thanks. I thanked Him for what He has done and is about to do.



Looking back at that past 4 years, I don't expect to be in His house.
But things started to change when the prodigal daughter came back to the Father's house...



I didn't expect to make many friends, brothers and sisters whom I now called my extended family. And a number of these people who were once total strangers and I didn't know of their existence... I have grown to love them.



I didn't expect my family members to become closer than before and to have the honor of worshipping Him in the same house.



I didn't think I could work full time and study my bachelor's part time, sponsored myself, stayed sane amongst the busy schedule and most of all, to graduate with a degree with honors.



I didn't think that while studying part-time, I was promoted twice consecutively in my job.



I didn't expect my poly best friend, Joan and I to rekindle and yet our love for each other remained strong and intact.

I didn't expect to be married to a fantastic husband who is also now one of my best friends.



I didn't expect Him to use whatever experience I had in my life, good and well the not so good to help and bring His hope to others who are in the same situations I was previously.



I didn't expect myself to be filled again with His hope and His love so much so that the colours in my life are more vibrant than before.



I didn't expect I could have the courage to believe in myself and believe in others too.



I didn't think I could pick myself up from a fall but He came down into the pit to carry me up and out of it... helped me stand on my feet and showed me how to walk again.



During worship today, He told me that where I am now is only a fraction of what He is going to do in my life. My mind was blown away when I heard that.



I want to pen this down as an 'altar' in my life of what He has done in my life since 4 years ago, to thank Him for His deliverance, His hand upon me and what He is going to do still in my years to come. Whatever it is...I know He has given me meaning and reason to my existence.



I pray some day next time, I will look back at this entry and be grateful to Him of what He has done in my life lest I become forgetful of His goodness and faithfulness and troubles seem too overbearing.



What about you? Where were you few years ago? =)

There is more

Arh... how fast November has parted with us. November seem like a whirlwind of events happening. It seems like I just blogged about November earlier about my relatives receiving Christ into their lives and then winning the inter-department company DnD cup.

Looking back, November was eventful indeed. Chris' good friend in good ol' Brisbane days, Puji was in town and I finally met him after hearing so much from Chris. It was amazing how a just acquainted friend like Puji could make people feel so comfortable to talk to him and it felt as though I have known him as long as Chris has! =) Talking, sharing and listening to Puji made me realise that we are definitely created for a bigger purpose than my own inhibitions, desires, wants, needs, worries, troubles, etc.. etc.. etc.

Adding on to this realisation from talking to Puji, recently I have been listening to Edmund Chan's audio sermons and as I was listening to one of his sermons on running with horses, the delivery in gist was that we are to run with horses with the empowerment of the Holy Spirit and with God on our side! Yet when we run with men (small, daily routine challenges), already we are complaining about everything about how weary we are, how we can never outrun them...no time... blah blah blah. How can we run with horses when we can't even handle running with men?

While listening to the sermon, I was thinking to myself... Here I am in comfy Singapore... worrying what should I wear to work tomorrow when there are others who only have one single set of clothings to wear until goodness knows when.

Here I am whining to God about my problems and complaining why He is so slow to act and why God sometimes can't be reached by say sms or something more convenient? And here I am complaining to God why He can't talk louder when the answer is pretty clear. The problem lies with myself.. busy with schedules, busy with activities, busy with appointments, busy blogging, busy even to some extent baking.. always tiring myself out BUT seldom a proper hour or two for God everyday. How can I be still before my God and know deep down He is God and to let Him speak when I am tired out from everything that I "created" (appointments, activities, rarara.. the whole works of a typical Singapore city life) with my own hands?

The last few days.. God brought me back to realising once more that I am made by Him for something more.. for something bigger than my own wants, needs, desires, worries, complaints, etc. And more importantly, to feast on His word, to feed myself with spiritual food and to sit in His lap and have intimate time with Him and know Him more than I ever known.

One morning I woke up with a thought... 2000 years ago, He was calling His people back to Him. 2000 years later, He is STILL calling His people back to Him. How faithful is my heavenly Father! This morning I woke up... and I heard one praise song lyric that goes something along the lines of "Your beloved for me.. still You made a way... ". That line struck me... I think no one in their sanity would send their own son to die for unappreciative people or to put it simply, specks of dusts who are too concern with themselves! But my God did that to free me and to give this speck of dust (me) a purpose!

To me... it simply doesn't make any sense. Yet I am left awe struck that He not only loves me a lot, He won't give up on a speck of dust, He takes time out to listen to this speck of dust whine, He assures this speck of dust. He faithfully waits for a speck of dust to spend time with Him and talk to Him. It's bizarre yet it's unbeliveably true!!

There is more of Him that I have not seek.. there is more of Him that I don't know. I don't want December and 2008 to pass me by without having more of Him. There is definitely more that He wishes to tell me, to reveal, to listen to.. and there is surely more of His character that I desire to know. There is more of His heartbeat that I long to hear and be familiar with....

November 2008 - Month of celebrations

1st November 2008 - Our department won the annual Dinner and Dance inter-department's performance competition. Praise God!!! While the results were being announced.. I was praying for God to move and claiming victory in Jesus name! So thankful to God! Also, I want to take this opportunity to thank my husband for contributing wonderful ideas to help us in our DnD performance script and also for fetching me to and fro on the actual day of DnD and more! Thanks, Oonie! Wuff Juuuu!!

Sweet victory

9th November 2008 - My Aunt Sharon and her husband, John came to receive Christ! Hallelujah!!!

November has not end as yet.. but I know that I am already so in awe of my sovereign God. I want to align my priorities and make God my priority!!!!

Short Stories...

Short Story 1:- He is moving...

He is moving, this I know.
It's evident from the recent blessings He bestow.

I've seen it, I've felt it.
And I can't deny it.

He is amazing.

And I can't help but to praise Him.

Short Story 2:-

Celebrated Oonie's birthday on 13th October.

Brought him to have his favourite rack of lamb.

The birthday boy is very pleased with the present that all his friends, family and me of cos (hehe) pen to him. I compiled it into a book and presented to him cos his language of love is words of affirmation. =) Read his blog.. hehe

Thanks to everyone who prayed, encouraged, affirmed, wished Oonie on his birthday for this book, he loves it... more than the rack of lamb.. trust me. =)

And also special mention to Chris Koh and Joan for being so sweet to order his favourite minty eye drops and air flown it ALLLLL DA WAY from NIPPON!!

Short Story 3:-

October was a month full of birthdays. Let me name the folks I know and you will agree with me.

Cousin Ian - 5th Oct. My ex-supervisor, Lien - 6th Oct. Me best bud, Joan - 10th Oct. My god brother (didi) Khanh in London - 10th Oct.

My bro-in-law, Hannes - 12th Oct. Oonie - 13th Oct. Alot right?

Anyway it was fun celebrating Joan's birthday together with Oonie and Chris Koh. Chris Koh and I planned for many weeks on how to celebrate both Joan & Oonie's birthday as a surprise. End up? The weather foiled our plans for a picnic and we had to revealed to the birthday babies that we are meeting to celebrate together and contingency plan was meeting & lunching at Canopy. Still, it was enjoyable. Here's a pic:-

And Oonie celebrating his birthday (again) together with Hannes.

This is us in an MPV cab on the way to enjoy our ride up on the Singapore explorer, courtesy of Charlotte my sis-in-law.

Short Story 4:- Many Firsts

There's been many firsts recently.

Our first time in a fish spa. I was squirming left right center. Check out those gimongus fishies:-
Our first time up on the Singapore Explorer:-

My first time cooking mussels. Hehehe... see earlier entry below.

My first time cooking this dish:- Roasted Fish Wrapped with Streaky Bacon (to be eaten w Rocket, Parmesan, Lemon Pesto sauce that we bought.)

Short Story 5:- Recent Good News!

No, I am NOT expecting. Sorry to disappoint u bunch of "like to play with other people's babies maniacs and dump them back with the parents when they cry" people!! Actually.... I am one of such. Hahahahha.

My primary 6 cousin came to receive Christ into her life in our youth service. PTL!!!

My sis-in-law, Grace says she wants to go for the next water bap. God's amazing!

My aunt Sharon and her husband Uncle John, came to church today for the first time! Hallelujah!

We shared more about Jesus last night with my grandma and we hope to be able to bring her to a Hokkien service church soon. Keep us in your prayers! =)

God is moving.. see short story 1. Hehehe.

1st October 2008: More than just a day...

Yes, we all know that 1st October is Children's Day!! Well, being children of God (hehe.. clear symptom of a kid in me that refuses to grow up.. lol) we all come together on a public holiday - Hari Raya Puasa to cook and simply enjoy the food and the company of cos.

So I searched for recipes and decided that I'll have a go to cook mussels with sweet leeks. Never cooked mussels before and was hoping that I won't end up poisoning my friends.

My ever-encouraging hubby, Oonie, decided that this time round he will just sit and watch me cook so that I can have more practice in cooking. (He's a fab cook and usually when we cook together, he will naturally take over - think cos I look at him with helpless eyes... wahha and I'll end up complaining that I didn't get to improve my cooking skills).

After buying the ingredients on the eve of Hari Raya which was awfully crowded in Orchard Road especially with the heavy downpour, the next morning I woke up before my alarm rang with excitement to have a go at cooking these mussels.

Whipping out the recipe, we rinsed the mussels over and over to make sure its clean. We washed the leeks and parsley and had it all chopped up. Then we realise that we ran out of garlic cloves at home. Oonie dearest drove to the nearest supermarket and came back half an hour later with the garlic. Life saver (or rather mussels saver) that Oonie! heheh.

Then the cooking began and Oonie sat near the stove to watch me cook. When the dish was almost done, we tasted it and somehow the full flavour is not released. We turned up the heat a bit and simmered the mussels.

This time... voila! Aromatic smell of sherry together with the garlic essence soaked up by soft leeks accompanied the mussels. Tasted the sauce... nice! I was delighted. First time cooking mussels and it was not bad I thought. Well, the final results would always be from other folks.

Oonie said it was good and when he says its good.. I'm happy!

Here's a pic of the Mussels with Sweet Leeks:-

Afterwhich we made a speedy gonzales preparing ourselves to head down to Mengchong & Sarah's where the rest were also preparing their dishes there.

Elaine cooked too. =) From the photo below, she had her eyes on her tasty chicken wings that she marinated. Thankfully, she brought bread over and cooked garlic bread. The garlic bread accompanied the sauce of the mussels very well. =)

Sarah cooked vietnamese rice rolls and taught everyone how to wrap it up. I think she's excellent! She can conduct her own cooking class already.. clear instructions yet helpful. Hehe. This is evidence of her non-official cooking class photo. =)

Busy hands moving about, be it to roll up a vietnamese roll or taking food to feed their hungry faces.. obviously from the photo there was quite a lot of food!

Oh yes, Oonie made this. He bought a pack of cheesy nachos, mozarella cheese, salsa sauce, thick shaves of honey baked ham and microwave them together. Ta-dah! Oonie's version of "Nacho Libre~!" Hahah. He said this is pretty common in the Australian cafes and tried this when he was studying in Australia previously. Yummy!!! Merv likes this dish.. hahah. He took a few bites of it, came back for more and each time he would mutter "this is really nice.. " hahahaha. Either that or he is very hungry.

And finally.... my mussels with leeks!!!! I'm glad the folks liked it. Thank God!!!

So why is 1st October 2008 more than just a day? Well, recently I felt a little down in my Christian walk and I started questioning myself and questioning God about some stuff. However, I had a reminder lesson today while preparing the mussels. Basically, to release the full flavour of the dish, heat has to be turned up and the dish has to simmer "in darkness under the lid" before the essence of the dish can be released.

It just reminds me of this verse when I find things get harder sometimes in my walk with Him 2 Corinthians 4-8 "8We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;". It just reminds me of coffee beans.. it needs to be crushed for it to release its taste and its aroma. Likewise, I need to be refined by the fire so that He can transform me to grow in His likeness. I need to simmer in His presence!!

As I was pondering on this thought while we drove from MC & Sarah's place to Emma & Geoffrey's place for another gathering, my sweet husband said to me "Baby, it's been 2 years since I first told you I liked you on this day!!!" (Check out this link to our wedding site on the meaning of 1st October to us)

Awww......definitely, 1st October is more than just a day to me.

Wah Liaozzz...

This week (when it's barely over).. I've had people asking me this "ARE YOU PREGNANT?".

Whenever they say that I will question "Why? My tummy very big huh?" and they go "NoNoNo.. because..." (Check out the following responses:-

1. You eating sour plums mah ...

[Wah Liaozzzz.. that was given to me by my colleague who went to K.L recently & she knows I eat her sour plums to stay awake during 3pm at work!!]

2. You are wearing flat shoes which we have not seen you wore to work before.. especially consecutively for 2 days!

[Wah Liaozzz... I injured my toe once.. so I started wearing flats.. and I went to HK and bought 3 pairs of flats la... so I'm wearing it!!]

3. You looked thinner (their assumption of morning sickness & all that jazz that an expectant mother can't eat], you are eating sour plums..

[Wah Liaozzzz... I looked thinner (which I obviously don't think so) cos I just recovered from a bad bout of flu mah]

Win reh lor... Hehe.

It makes my hands itch to wanna post up this statement on facebook -> "Priscilla is expecting.....the weekend to arrive soon" or something along those lines to just see how many will throw tomatoes at me for being cheeky.

When I came back from my honeymoon, my Mum asked me "So how? Wu bo? (Have or not?).." I was like HUH? And she went on saying "Grandma also asked leh.. Grandma say cousin SO&SO married liao now expecting you know.. ".

I just rolled my eyes to China, sighed and walked away.

When I say something to the CG or my friends these days like "Guess what?" or "Good news!!!" their response is all the same. "You're expecting?". =.=!!!

Folks, fyi... babies do not come cheap. They consume more than an aeroplane for fuel, they can be noiser than sitting next to the wing on an aeroplane. They wail through the night and they crap on you just when you think they are cute.

Besides... no babies for the next 1 to 2 years for me eventhough the 4 months maternity from work may be nice BUT STILL, I'll have to work by looking after my child. So Hello!!! I JUST got married about 5+ months back! No babies for NOW...

Besides, like I always say "a kid.. (me) can't have another kid.."

I have a feeling alot of people would be bombarding me after this. Now, why can't I just order babies online via Amazon or something.. then it would be less painful!!!!! The thought of going into labour is like yikes!!!!

I'm Falling On My Knees...

*Hungry, I come to You for I know You satisfy

I am empty but I know Your love does not run dry

So I wait for You, so I wait for You

I'm falling on my knees

Offering all of me.

Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

Broken I run to You for Your arms are open wide

I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life

So I wait for You, so I wait for You*

This song describes me to the point recently.

During worship today, I fell on my knees and balled my eyes out in front of my God.

Not sure why, I started confessing all of my sins and asking God to help me and cleanse me through & through. I felt so small before a mighty and powerful God.

Yet... the first words I heard from my mighty and powerful God were loving words "Do not give up on me just like I have never given up on you". It was there... I started crying like a broken tap. It's been a looooooooong while since I was broken, since I was not holding back, since I experienced Him at such expanse.

I know for sure at that moment, when I am broken & with a contrite heart before Him, He will be able to do a new work in me, He will be able to 'shape' me as to how He wants my heart to be, now that it is broken. A good friend once told me 'when life gets down hard on you until you are on your knees, that's the best position to start praying'. That phrase got stuck on my head. =)

It's true like the song 'Hungry (I'm falling on my knees)' when the lyrics say

"I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life..."

How can I do without You God, the lover of my soul?

I'm falling... in love.. all over again ..

and I wait for Him to do a deep and new work in me.

Summary of recent events...

Let the pictures do the talking... lol..

From the most recent events:- latest...

Having fun at the uber fun HPL Premier League Finals + Game On Carnival .. Ink took this shot of me floating! Ha!

and...

recently, after CG one night, had fun photo shots @Inky's uber cool home studio

I'm luvin it!! Excellent shots there, bro! Heee.. I am excited for our outdoor shoot!

Then there was our CG, MustardSeeds' first SOW event at the Southern Ridges walk! Pris G. & Andrew organised an exciting walk with games & prizes and handled all logistics too for our CG. It was fun & we had a great time this National Day. Well done again, dynamic duo Pris G. & Andrew!!! Here are some pics:-

Group shot of MustardSeeds & our friends!

Henderson Wave walk... really interesting and amazing how using wood the structure can turn out like this!

Then we walked further and went to Canopy Park... Many interesting things to see here. There is the wizard of Oz garden. Look at the lion behind us! In the pic below, 2 Priscillas are enjoying themselves here! Actually, if I use my husband's surname as an initial.. I will also be Pris G. Hahaha. The pretty Priscilla beside me is Priscilla Gan... the really capable sister who organised this amazing event with her beau Andrew! =)

This is supposed to be Dorothy of Wizard of Oz.. not a witch ok.. Look carefully at her skirt, and see if you can spot anything unusual?

Close up on Dorothy's skirt... (It's Chanel lor.. don't play play ok.. no wonder the wizard of Oz was afraid of her.. and the lion, the tin man and scarecrow were all following her!!!)

Bubbly Vanessa in green, me in the middle & the one with the lovely smile is Reina in white

Oonie & I taking a rest (Eh, 9km walk leh... no joke can!!! heheh) at sortof a 'garden day bed'.

Interesting colours of plants used as a wall deco...


This is Hort Park

Couple ponds?

All the ladies of the day!!! We enjoyed ourselves thoroughly!!

Next event, the day before was Marsli & Albert's Wedding, so here are some pics of Oonie & I after the wedding when we had nothing to do and were also waiting for a cab to head home.. lol:-

Oonie & I @the wedding banquet (all shots were taken using his mobile)
While waiting for cab, Oonie whipped our his mobile again to snap pics.. lol

(See my manga shine hair under the light? wahahahhaha)

NEXT!! Yes, more events... hehehe... we had a fabulous time at Austin Hills Golf Resort where we had a unit retreat in J.B. So again, let the pictures do the talking:-

I like this pic of Reina & I ... =) We've both come a long way.. thank God for binding us in His love!


Luv this group shot... hehehe..

We had a series of jumping stunts ... here are just some pictures... hehehe... it's good to be jumpingfor the fun of it... Adults can jump too okayyyyyy! Lol..

Ok, the "don't know how to pose already but still wanna pose" shots... hahaha

Prior to the unit retreat, Chris & I met up with Wansheng for dinner (Joo chiat Char Kway Teow!!) & our long postponed durian feast.

The boys bonding and giving their grins as a sign of approval for the char kway teow.

As for the durians, well we read Ps. Jeff's blog recently about 'Cat Mountain King' durians and went exploring.. So.. this is the supposedly infamous 'Cat Mountain King' durians. Rumoured to be extremely creamy and once you taken this, you won't want other types of durians... and some internet ppl blogged that its from Pahang apparently.

I must say that the Cat Mountain Durians are pretty good. BUT.. there is a catch..

Although we finished the entire 3 durians ourselves except for the 'freebie'... it was kindof a "bittersweet" experience. Not just the taste of the durians that were bittersweet... I'll tell you why.
The durians were bitter sweet... but we paid a WHOPPING 200 BUCKAROOS for these spikey things as we were obviously doped by the seller.. (He was carrying his 'parang' of a knife when he told the boys who picked the durians that they can't back out after opening the durians to try.. - which was also at his suggestion that they open the durians to try...) Oh well.
After this.. we had our fill with durians.. but we all left our arms and legs behind at the durian stall and had to crawl back to our car to get home. When we left the crime scene, apparently.. other victims were eagerly taking their seats at the table, awaiting for their arms and legs to be chopped off too. No wonder they say after you eat Cat Mountain King (literal translation from it's mandarin name) durians.. u won't eat other types of durians.. firstly no more $$ to eat other types and after being amputated of your hands and legs... u can't eat any other types anymore. Hahaha..lesson learnt.. bring yourmothers who does regular marketing to buy durians.. We are pretty sure that they will be the ones 'amputating' the durian sellers and still be able to walk away with more than they bargained for. *MEOWWW*

The Nerd & His Treasure

I read Germs' blog entry few days back about her recent encounter on nose nuggets.

TODAY, I am gonna blog my own personal encounter too. Speak about coincidence!!!

After work, I decided I will make a mini trip down to Vivo City to get some stuff and also buy the Kolo mee for my parents to try since I am going back to visit my parents tonight. So I boarded a bus from my work place and I was happy to note that the bus was relatively empty. Yay!! I get to sit mostly wherever I want. So I sat near to the exit and sat on the aisle seat of the bus.

Few stops later, while I was fiddling with my ipod... a nerd came on the bus and when there are SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many seats he could choose from, he chose to sit next to me and squeeze in to the window... HELLO???!!!! I repeat .. SOOOOOOOOOOOO (count the 'Os' can!!) many seats, he sat next to me. Aku tak tawu man ...

Don't be mistaken, usually I won't bother who sits next to me that much. BUT when he started to use his finger and dig for 'gold' in a disgusting fashion where the jaw is open and he is digging as though the booger is stuck up near the brains and like its legal and oh-so-cool... urgggghhhh... I could feel my tongue foaming.

As I am typing this my insides are churning just recollecting the scene earlier... bleah...
So after what seem like eternity, Mr. Nerd finally nail that booger (literally...hahahaha) and got it out. If you think my ordeal was over, think again. To my bewilderment, he started twiddling his booger in between his fingers as though he is trying to feel or decipher the texture of it. ARGHHHHHHHHH...... *help*

At this time I decided I should really change to another seat in case he flicks his booger and it landed on me. *SHUDDER* Just when I was contemplating to do so (cos I am about to alight already), the nerd went for another treasure hunt and this time in less time than the first, he got his treasure, added onto his previous collection and started twiddling BOTH boogers in his finger. *SHUDDER*SHUDDER*

At this point, I reached my stop and I reached out for the handle bar that was near the exit to tap my EX link card. Suddenly... I was being paranoid and thought to myself that perhaps another treasure hunter had committed the same act and smeared it onto the pole. *Puke*

For those of you out there who wanna nail ur booger, PLSPLSPLSPLSPLS.... use a tissue or at least do it discreetly and just throw the darn thing away ... NOT flick it away but onto a tissue and dispose the tissue. PLS DON'T FONDLE IT AS THOUGH IT IS REALLY GOLD!!!!

Obedience is better...

(Warning.. long entry)

It's been interesting the last two weeks. Let's just say that almost everyday starting last Friday, I had to make certain decisions about certain things.

Yes, we do make decisions everyday of our lives and maybe it's not something big. But the last 1 week plus or so, the Lord reminded me how some of our decisions border on fine thin lines and even a tiny decision can cause a whirlwind result if decided wrongly.

The decision making process is always gruelling. My uni good friend, Serene tells me so and I totally agree. The last few days, I had to make certain decisions and like I said earlier, making a decision about something is not easy. So I pondered and I quizzled my close friends, I talked to my loving husband who is ever so supportive and I prayed and talked to God about all these things. Still, there was no peace about some things.

I had no peace because I think my mind doesn't tally with what the spirit of God tells me.

Y'know how the human side of you wants to take certain actions to set things right? Well, that was me this week.

I watched a lot of movies this week. Hellboy on Thursday and just last night it was The Dark Knight-[side note: Heath Ledger was really excellent as a joker. In fact I thought even Christian Bale was a really good batman and so was Michael Caine as ALFRED the BUTLER (Oonie, I got it right this time ok!!)]

Both movies kinda spoke to me especially Batman..(What?! Some of you maybe rolling your eyes to China going how can a movie like Batman and especially Hellboy speaks to you?!). Again, the Lord showed me how our decisions border on fine thin lines.

To shed some light on how the movies spoke to me... well, for Hellboy, he's a demon.. yeah and in the movie he made a decision to protect the humans eventhough the humans scorn his looks and rejected him cos he isn't human. As for Batman, it showed me that there is always the good and bad in people but its what side do we wanna choose to believe? The good or the bad that makes a difference. It doesn't take alot of effort to choose to believe the bad in people to be honest.

Prior to watching Batman last night, we attended the Go Forth Missions Conference and again the Lord spoke to me through Rev. Dr. Loren Cunningham's sermon about the character Joseph in the bible. In short, I didn't realised that the bible never indicates that God is the Father of Joseph eventhough he was from the lineage of Abraham and that God always say He is the father of Abraham and Jacob. In our eyes or rather in mine, Joseph has always been a smart and successful bloke, able to handle the entire Egypt well in his duties as second in charge. Yet God never says He is father of Joseph cos Joseph's one decision of making his boss, Pharaoh into the wealthiest country then, actually turned God's dream for Joseph into a nightmare for the Israelites years later.

This morning, I was listening to some music and basically chilling out while I vegetate. After one music track ended, it went onto the next track and instead of a nice soothing soundtrack, it was a sermon from John Bevere and again it spoke to me. Coincidence? I don't think so. Things have been happening so aptly of late.

As I began to listen to the sermon, I realised that with the latest decisions I need to make, I have not come to God with an obedient heart. It's more of "Ok, I have a situation here God, what do You want me to do about it? What?! Okaaayyyy... Riiiight... Thanks, but no thanks" And I should be coming to God with "God, I have a situation here, despite my own emotions, my thoughts and my plans, etc. I will obey what You want me to do about it.." Ouch.. my flesh hurts and tugs. Heheh.

Again, I'm reminded obedience to God is better than sacrifices. And I rather obey for the long run than to make the wrong decisions that border on fine thin lines in my shortsightedness. Obedience is not exactly easy or erm even joyful sometimes, and many a times the test of obedience comes very subtlely without us knowing. But I know one thing for sure.. (Philippinas 4:7)"7the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Once more, I've fallen deeper for Him.

Summer 2008

Summer 2008

Rising oil and food prices seem to be occupying the news these days. The increase of oil prices leads to of course, several things increasing as well such as our electricity bills. So this summer... to save electricity... I decided to chop off my hair. HUH?! Hahaha. Well, lame excuse. Truth be told is that I've looooong wanted to cut my hair but cos I permed it in Japan I tried to make the best of my SGD 45 worth for as long as I can. =P

Not too bad, considering that I kept it for a good 3 months when the stylist in Japan said the curls would only last max 2 months. So I went for my haircut and came out prolly half a kg lighter with my hair all chopped off. No more curls... no more long hair which = less maintenance, save time, save shampoo, save conditioner, save water, save electricity, save $$$ money on shampoo and conditioner, can wake up later. Hehehehe. See? The instant benefits that came along with me short hair. So here's a couple of pics of me short summer 2008 hairdo:-

Ta-Dah!!

I'm luvin it... (Ba-da-da-da-da... )

On a slightly separate topic, summer weekends seem to zoom past me and it's like when I am just about to enjoy the weekend, it's over. I think what I really dislike about going to work as a working female is...what should i wear to work... Well, in a few hours that question's gonna hit me again.. I beta crawl into bed now.